Death in LIFE......$$$$@@@######&&*^$%

The phonebell rings.....trin trin......and the sad tone from the other end ensures the sudden demise of somebody in family or friends. Some road accident, an illness or most common heart failure might be the cause, which forces you rethink about the uncertainty of life & the vaccum a death can create in lives of other related members.
Two young daughters to be married, a school going son & absolutely dependent life partner.......how will they manage now?.......are the common whispers people speak about on such a situation.
Is a man's life purpose a responsibility to serve all the needs of hour & beyond. To ensure that he/she does makes others life comfortable even after he/she is gone. Is it not for him/her to enjoy the beauty that it offers in lifetime & cherish it. WILL anyone remember him/her for everything that he/she did for them or whether there be a longing in people's heart that certain other things should have been done before the final end.
And will there ever be an full stop when no desire is unfulfilled & nothing much to reach out for?

How many of us has seen our own parents reaching out to insurance papers , checking their investment plan diary , bank statements & making some other note in their personal diary pensively?.......................I think most of them do that.

Suddenly, the discussions with anyone revolves around that one incident only for weeks to come. Suddenly, there is some extra seriousness in the work that we do & moreover suddenly we try to be extra good to people so that they can help your dear ones in case of any such emergency.

Suddenly, we start realising the importance that each day has. Suddenly, we start praying hard. suddenly, we stop thinking to spend on extravagant items. SUDDENLY, we start evaluating our lives monetarily, we weigh ourselves against paper pieces.

Suddenly, we stop watching saas-bahu ki kahani & switch the channel to NDTV profit. Suddenly, we become dumb to other things in life.

We are not dead, but we fear death , SUDDENLY.

"DEATH is not the greatest loss in our lives, the greatest loss is what dies in us when we are still ALIVE"

I think most of us have become Egyptian mummies, our bodies are preserved but WE ARE DEAD.

Its LOVE .......in AIR......

Love is in Air........most of us must have read this line sometime or the other while quickly going through daily predication column in the newspaper magazine & must have waited eagerly or atleast anticipated some good to happen during the day.

This way Love is always in air........that means its never materialised.... :(

And should it be a girl / boy love everytime?..................Today on 14th Feb, 2010...Valentines day.......I experienced that your heart can still go fonder for anyone who have been pleasant to you without him/her having any reason to do it.

It was a red light & i was finding my way back from Surajkund mela with my parents today & were bit confused over which turn to take...........so.......we asked an auto-rickshaw driver sideby (a long bearded old muslim man) about it........and to our surprise he not only guided us our way but told us about the historic importance of the place we were at that time......what was on our right & left & abc & xyz & all.....and that too very fondly with a smile.......We were not the only ones he was kind with....he was guiding & engaging well his "Sawaariis" as well :)

The Love in him for people around was the feel good factor of Valentines day OR was it the "LOVE is in Air" thing he read in the morning is still the question..... :))

By driving his passangers to their point & telling us the way right or left must have suffice his duty & kindness respectively well...........BUT, SMILE on this old man's face was the winning feature there.

YOU ARE NEVER FULLY DRESSED WITHOUT A SMILE ON YOUR FACE......Folks please smile to see that smile on others as well...... :))

Lets Do it!!!

" Har kisi ko mukammal jahaan nahi milta.........Kahi Zameen to kahi Aasmaan nahi milta...."

This is what i have heard & told by so many whenever i try to be ambitious (over ambitious as what they call). Why is it that we stick to some old sage's saying for too long & make it our life's rule. Why is it that we plan & act as per some negative line....just because it is beautifully said....everytime.....and we make it our attitude & moreover an answer to everything that doesnt turn out well.

It is just so easy to come up with such excuses , but analysing oneself honestly, Is Destiny the answer to everything that we do?

Does such explanations really keep us at peace, when we have really really wanted something to happen but it didnt?.........even after we know that we just worked with "spark" in us but we needed the "FIRE".

The Spark will always leave room for something that is above said whereas The Fire will burn all of it....no apprehension....no fear.....you will just have the Ash that you wished for :)

Why do we not make something like this our attitude (as +ve & +ve = +ve).

My answer to all those who still adhere to the above line is:

"Agar lungi to mukammal jahaan lungi mai.....Wahi zameen aur wahi Aasmaan lungi mai....."

....I will strive for everything i want & i will make sure i get it.....................:)

aM i lOOKING aLRIGHT?

Oooooooh Hiiiiiiiii.....Muwahh Muwahh...how have you been...haven't seen you since ages.....U looking fab as usaul (courtesy recent Mentos Ad)...........You will comes across this usual chit chat everywhere, everywhere where girls are......and god only knows where they are not....:)

I always wonder (despite being a girl myself) that why even bestest of girls, ladies always need reassurance from others time & again & everytime & after every second hour from every second person they meet & for every single thing they carry & would love if they get it every second minute :)

And God forbid if such pretty faces finds some crazy admirer (better if thats a female, as male following is definite anyways) , then non-ending discussions on shopping complexes, boutiques, fashion stores & all starts but never ends......:)

It would be mean on my part to dig into such female's mind....but its true....they make good friends only with those who can admire their looks, compliment their wardrobe & reassure them that they look alright & that they look better than the other girls around.......:)

Its horrifying to see the low confidence of high class ladies. It scares the hell out of me when i see girls so very concious of their looks & gazes. What a vain it is to look pretty & sound shallow..........

I can ,i think never connect with such girly instincts ever & will always be a freak among those ugly faces -prettily made-up :(

"When you photograph people in colour you photograph their clothes, when you photograph people in Black & White, you picture their soul.:

So......GO & GET YOUR SOULS GIRLSSSSSSSS :)

When it rained Hell from Heaven!!!

It was during my last rainy season that i realised the affection of two people in my life. These two people were around since almost 2 years , but never did i realised their worth as much as i now do. Before anyone start guessing , these two special people are my office collegues, who had almost made it their duty to pick & drop me to office, even after the transport facility was withdrawn. Everything was going fine & we three had even started to enjoy (after much cribbing) our 3 hrs daily bike rides to & fro from Pitampura to Gurgaon, when it started to rain. Now what?.....we three asked each other......we could'nt even drove ourselves to office in car, as it rained heavily those days & roads in Gurgaon were pathetic, almost daily we would see several four wheelers water-logged by the road. So?......so we had to continue with our bike rides. Free soul as i am , was very excited even now, irrespective of other two's apparent doubts (that how would i like to go to work almost drenched / how would i manage heavy rain on wheels etc. etc.). Howsoever doubtful as they were, would not even ready leave me behind & go themselves (as it not a matter of just one day, rain would continue for many more days now). We started our rainy office trips on two wheels & it would rain almost non-stop & more so when we were on road :(
I was enjoying the ride & creative humour of them, though they had tough time wading their way through sharp rain arrows right on their face, but still kept checking that i was fine (as heavy rain had made already damaged tracks more muddy n slippery) & well covered.
One such fine day, 'A' decided to change our normal route which would be better he thought.
But, he just thought that guys........as when we proceeded towards it, we saw 2-3 feet deep pool of water through which we had to pass.....on bikes.....dirty muddy water.....no way back....imagine :(
I was happy still.......laughing.....all my way....:)......& must have almost irritated them.....but loved it still....that was an must experience adventure people you must have in your lifetime.

All done & written.....what is more important is that while all way i used to have fun, sometimes i used to pray that rain should stop just for the time till i reach work & then again in the evening to stop till i reach home........And on the other hand there were these two golden hearts who i think always prayed that i should reach fine. How selfish it was on my part to pray just for "ME" & how great on their part to pray again just for "ME". It was easy for me to hop to "B's" bike when "A's" had puncture & vice versa and then there were these two who always made sure to run their bikes parallel just to be some help in such odd time.

Today, when i look back at those times, i find them still the same....& Myself?.......
With my whole heart i am proud of you guys & you people deserve the best of life.
Miss the time, discussions, laughter & fights shared by you both the most. Like a little thing you protected me & like the closest buddy i took you for granted.
I will always cherish the affection you bestowed upon me & will never forget the silent lesson you taught. Rainfall will never be the same for me now, I will not be selfish hereafter.
Thankless as i was to you both, today i want to tell all what you mean.
A : Ajay Rai
B : Pratyush Bannerjee

Is there anyone whom you would like to thank today? :)
Lets not delay.....:)

"The Dawn"

Though the blog has been named "The Dawn", its quite late by clock :)
Its the Dawn of my being a part of this network, of which i always wanted to be.....but now when i am here...cannot think of writing any good :(
where ? where? where is my muse tonight?
There is a sense of panic which surrounds me right now......as if writing something good here has become my foremost duty from now on.
As if i have just delivered a baby, which is my own ;)..........OOPS as if i have just conceived.
See, how carefully i want to choose words now........how apt i want to be published.......how many times will i read it again & again before clicking onto PUBLISH POST :)

Well calm down girl.....i say to myself :).........noone is even going to read your stupid stuffs......personal goof ups etc. etc. So you can just write anything & everything that crosses your mind & without even double crossing how it is :(
Excited, super excited, super duper excited as i am at this moment (12:10 am , 23rd jan, 2010) to be presise, i think i should end my 1st write-up here :)
Though not sleepy right now, i think i will just think to come up with something worthy to post next time, which will be soon.

Bye ............................... :))))))