LIFE In A Metro>>>>

Iss yatra Sewa me Thoda Vilambhh Hoga..............There Will A Short Delay To This Service...We Regret The Inconvinience....

Uncle A: Ohh God, what is this delay now, we are already troubled. This Metro has become crowded worse than these Bluelines buses.

Uncle B: You are right Bhaisahab!!!....Its all same everywhere...kahi bhi chale jao....Delhi to barbaad hai (Delhi is ruined now).

Uncle A: Haah bhaisahab...Sarkaar ko kuch karna padega.......itni population badd rahi hai ki koi control hi nahi hai.......Sab apna pet bharne me lage hue hai.....desh ki kisi ko koi chinta hi nahi hai

Uncle C: Yehi agar Sanjay Gandhi jinda hota to bhaisahab aaj desh ka naksha hi kuch aur hota.........hame koi control me lane wala neta chahiye

Uncle A: Haah.....ya phir koi Sardar Vallabbhai Patel jaisa hona chahiye....unhone aise aise decisions seconds me liye the....tab ke baad desh me koi revolution nahi hua dekh lo......nahi na.

Uncle C: (by now feeling in control of the discussion & very excited & a diegard Sanjay Gandhi's fan i suppose) Sanjay Gandhi hota to abhi tak population control ke liye kuch zaroor karta.......

Uncle B: (Feeling bit neglected, felt the need of saying something before everyone takes their own course) Jinti bhi facilities deti hai sarkar, sab badti population khaa jaati hai......yaha to China se bhi bura haal ho gaya hai....pair rakhne tak ki jagah nahi hai.



And the metro resumed its journey now.....thank god it did......and it followed sigh of relief from these uncles & roaring laughter.

The station was New Delhi & i kept pondering over the discussion till i was almost forced to get down (though it was my station) by the population (i beg to differ to call " Crowd" as " population " here" ).

I kept wondering what those uncles meant when they say " XYZ hota to population control karta", when we Indians are still not out of " X" & " Y" (read chromosomes).
The discussion group took the topic more than what is stated above & sounded quite meaningful too (except " wo hota toh...."....hahahahahaaa).
The point is.........Do we need any law, policies to be more mindful of our deeds.
Do we need to be checked by some power control when we plan a family heir (which can only be a male child...so any no. of additions before the same are welcome).

Whatever happened .....happened......Its coming to saturation now.......ALL YOU YOUNG PEOPLE........Lets contribute (i mean NO....i mean.....yes u get it......) & help to give METRO its LIFE.


All I claimed was that when a drastic change occurs, it occurs in a relatively small and isolated population.

Rome Was Not Built In A Day...Lets Try It........

Please STOP!!!!!!

Not finding her around after the nap or cycling rounds would make me crazy, searching for her and most of the times going exactly where she was, that which followed. I must see her around is all i wished for. And, when she asked, "How do u know i am here"?.......I said, "I must know it".

I am clinging to her since the time i was born as if that umbilical cord is still on. Sharing her even with my brother was untolerable and i would insisit on calling her "My Mom".
There is no boasting when i say that i have never seen such a beauty around, such poise, tolerance, intelligence & her lovely ways.
I look upto her in awe & often wondering that how she manages to keep her patience with us messing up the whole (years after i am still clueless).
She comes as an easy bait for our tempers, but fails to show us hers (as she couldn't help smiling while scolding us :)) )............The best smile i have ever seen on.

Hiding her sheer concern for us, she made us strong. I would just jump onto her as i was so confident that she will hold me on.

I have that day so apparent before my eyes while i write this..............when just looking at her few white hair streaks, i told her, " You please dont grown old, you will not look good then" to which she said, " Ok i will die young". I didnt speak with her for days after that as it is something i could never imagine.

The only reason i wish time to STOP is because i hate to see her growing old.

You are my creator and for you i shall live..........Love u Mom

The Thing Called LOVE *

Apparently the most hated, dreaded name in the world history is of Adolf Hitler. But could that hatred & gory history stop Eva Braun from loving the hated man. Eva Braun-----The girl who was 23 yrs younger to him.....The girl he never accepted publicly......The girl who snapped every ties to be with him.....The girl who was his mistress for 12 yrs & wife for 40 hrs.......BUT, most importantly the girl who ended her life for & with him. NOW, this is the snippets of the article i read recently, which again fuelled my curiosity as to what LOVE is?
TrueLOVE is loving the good or bad / or any, just unconditionally?
Can loving the bad with same intensity be good (or vice versa)?
What could have made Eva took her life, when she knew that his political powers are over & moreover she is not accepted part of his life & not the least, she was almost the age of his daughter.
Can this be termed "Attraction....fatal one for that matter....or selfless surrendering of one's soul like Mirabai to Lord Krishna?
We all believe Mirabai's act as love & whereas today any women loving some other man than the one she is married to, is called an Extra Marital.
How do we define it & who defines it?
I have always believed that we all have twin soul, with whom one may meet in the lifetime or not, but always craves for one.
Opinions , Good , Bad....all trails behind, when...The "desire".......which is sinful in puritanical terms, but, are the most fulfilled moments in life.
LOVE, cant be good or bad either.........How on earth are you ever going to explain in terms of chemistry and physics so important a biological phenomenon as first love? (Albert Einstein)

Death in LIFE......$$$$@@@######&&*^$%

The phonebell rings.....trin trin......and the sad tone from the other end ensures the sudden demise of somebody in family or friends. Some road accident, an illness or most common heart failure might be the cause, which forces you rethink about the uncertainty of life & the vaccum a death can create in lives of other related members.
Two young daughters to be married, a school going son & absolutely dependent life partner.......how will they manage now?.......are the common whispers people speak about on such a situation.
Is a man's life purpose a responsibility to serve all the needs of hour & beyond. To ensure that he/she does makes others life comfortable even after he/she is gone. Is it not for him/her to enjoy the beauty that it offers in lifetime & cherish it. WILL anyone remember him/her for everything that he/she did for them or whether there be a longing in people's heart that certain other things should have been done before the final end.
And will there ever be an full stop when no desire is unfulfilled & nothing much to reach out for?

How many of us has seen our own parents reaching out to insurance papers , checking their investment plan diary , bank statements & making some other note in their personal diary pensively?.......................I think most of them do that.

Suddenly, the discussions with anyone revolves around that one incident only for weeks to come. Suddenly, there is some extra seriousness in the work that we do & moreover suddenly we try to be extra good to people so that they can help your dear ones in case of any such emergency.

Suddenly, we start realising the importance that each day has. Suddenly, we start praying hard. suddenly, we stop thinking to spend on extravagant items. SUDDENLY, we start evaluating our lives monetarily, we weigh ourselves against paper pieces.

Suddenly, we stop watching saas-bahu ki kahani & switch the channel to NDTV profit. Suddenly, we become dumb to other things in life.

We are not dead, but we fear death , SUDDENLY.

"DEATH is not the greatest loss in our lives, the greatest loss is what dies in us when we are still ALIVE"

I think most of us have become Egyptian mummies, our bodies are preserved but WE ARE DEAD.

Its LOVE .......in AIR......

Love is in Air........most of us must have read this line sometime or the other while quickly going through daily predication column in the newspaper magazine & must have waited eagerly or atleast anticipated some good to happen during the day.

This way Love is always in air........that means its never materialised.... :(

And should it be a girl / boy love everytime?..................Today on 14th Feb, 2010...Valentines day.......I experienced that your heart can still go fonder for anyone who have been pleasant to you without him/her having any reason to do it.

It was a red light & i was finding my way back from Surajkund mela with my parents today & were bit confused over which turn to take...........so.......we asked an auto-rickshaw driver sideby (a long bearded old muslim man) about it........and to our surprise he not only guided us our way but told us about the historic importance of the place we were at that time......what was on our right & left & abc & xyz & all.....and that too very fondly with a smile.......We were not the only ones he was kind with....he was guiding & engaging well his "Sawaariis" as well :)

The Love in him for people around was the feel good factor of Valentines day OR was it the "LOVE is in Air" thing he read in the morning is still the question..... :))

By driving his passangers to their point & telling us the way right or left must have suffice his duty & kindness respectively well...........BUT, SMILE on this old man's face was the winning feature there.

YOU ARE NEVER FULLY DRESSED WITHOUT A SMILE ON YOUR FACE......Folks please smile to see that smile on others as well...... :))

Lets Do it!!!

" Har kisi ko mukammal jahaan nahi milta.........Kahi Zameen to kahi Aasmaan nahi milta...."

This is what i have heard & told by so many whenever i try to be ambitious (over ambitious as what they call). Why is it that we stick to some old sage's saying for too long & make it our life's rule. Why is it that we plan & act as per some negative line....just because it is beautifully said....everytime.....and we make it our attitude & moreover an answer to everything that doesnt turn out well.

It is just so easy to come up with such excuses , but analysing oneself honestly, Is Destiny the answer to everything that we do?

Does such explanations really keep us at peace, when we have really really wanted something to happen but it didnt?.........even after we know that we just worked with "spark" in us but we needed the "FIRE".

The Spark will always leave room for something that is above said whereas The Fire will burn all of it....no apprehension....no fear.....you will just have the Ash that you wished for :)

Why do we not make something like this our attitude (as +ve & +ve = +ve).

My answer to all those who still adhere to the above line is:

"Agar lungi to mukammal jahaan lungi mai.....Wahi zameen aur wahi Aasmaan lungi mai....."

....I will strive for everything i want & i will make sure i get it.....................:)

aM i lOOKING aLRIGHT?

Oooooooh Hiiiiiiiii.....Muwahh Muwahh...how have you been...haven't seen you since ages.....U looking fab as usaul (courtesy recent Mentos Ad)...........You will comes across this usual chit chat everywhere, everywhere where girls are......and god only knows where they are not....:)

I always wonder (despite being a girl myself) that why even bestest of girls, ladies always need reassurance from others time & again & everytime & after every second hour from every second person they meet & for every single thing they carry & would love if they get it every second minute :)

And God forbid if such pretty faces finds some crazy admirer (better if thats a female, as male following is definite anyways) , then non-ending discussions on shopping complexes, boutiques, fashion stores & all starts but never ends......:)

It would be mean on my part to dig into such female's mind....but its true....they make good friends only with those who can admire their looks, compliment their wardrobe & reassure them that they look alright & that they look better than the other girls around.......:)

Its horrifying to see the low confidence of high class ladies. It scares the hell out of me when i see girls so very concious of their looks & gazes. What a vain it is to look pretty & sound shallow..........

I can ,i think never connect with such girly instincts ever & will always be a freak among those ugly faces -prettily made-up :(

"When you photograph people in colour you photograph their clothes, when you photograph people in Black & White, you picture their soul.:

So......GO & GET YOUR SOULS GIRLSSSSSSSS :)

When it rained Hell from Heaven!!!

It was during my last rainy season that i realised the affection of two people in my life. These two people were around since almost 2 years , but never did i realised their worth as much as i now do. Before anyone start guessing , these two special people are my office collegues, who had almost made it their duty to pick & drop me to office, even after the transport facility was withdrawn. Everything was going fine & we three had even started to enjoy (after much cribbing) our 3 hrs daily bike rides to & fro from Pitampura to Gurgaon, when it started to rain. Now what?.....we three asked each other......we could'nt even drove ourselves to office in car, as it rained heavily those days & roads in Gurgaon were pathetic, almost daily we would see several four wheelers water-logged by the road. So?......so we had to continue with our bike rides. Free soul as i am , was very excited even now, irrespective of other two's apparent doubts (that how would i like to go to work almost drenched / how would i manage heavy rain on wheels etc. etc.). Howsoever doubtful as they were, would not even ready leave me behind & go themselves (as it not a matter of just one day, rain would continue for many more days now). We started our rainy office trips on two wheels & it would rain almost non-stop & more so when we were on road :(
I was enjoying the ride & creative humour of them, though they had tough time wading their way through sharp rain arrows right on their face, but still kept checking that i was fine (as heavy rain had made already damaged tracks more muddy n slippery) & well covered.
One such fine day, 'A' decided to change our normal route which would be better he thought.
But, he just thought that guys........as when we proceeded towards it, we saw 2-3 feet deep pool of water through which we had to pass.....on bikes.....dirty muddy water.....no way back....imagine :(
I was happy still.......laughing.....all my way....:)......& must have almost irritated them.....but loved it still....that was an must experience adventure people you must have in your lifetime.

All done & written.....what is more important is that while all way i used to have fun, sometimes i used to pray that rain should stop just for the time till i reach work & then again in the evening to stop till i reach home........And on the other hand there were these two golden hearts who i think always prayed that i should reach fine. How selfish it was on my part to pray just for "ME" & how great on their part to pray again just for "ME". It was easy for me to hop to "B's" bike when "A's" had puncture & vice versa and then there were these two who always made sure to run their bikes parallel just to be some help in such odd time.

Today, when i look back at those times, i find them still the same....& Myself?.......
With my whole heart i am proud of you guys & you people deserve the best of life.
Miss the time, discussions, laughter & fights shared by you both the most. Like a little thing you protected me & like the closest buddy i took you for granted.
I will always cherish the affection you bestowed upon me & will never forget the silent lesson you taught. Rainfall will never be the same for me now, I will not be selfish hereafter.
Thankless as i was to you both, today i want to tell all what you mean.
A : Ajay Rai
B : Pratyush Bannerjee

Is there anyone whom you would like to thank today? :)
Lets not delay.....:)

"The Dawn"

Though the blog has been named "The Dawn", its quite late by clock :)
Its the Dawn of my being a part of this network, of which i always wanted to be.....but now when i am here...cannot think of writing any good :(
where ? where? where is my muse tonight?
There is a sense of panic which surrounds me right now......as if writing something good here has become my foremost duty from now on.
As if i have just delivered a baby, which is my own ;)..........OOPS as if i have just conceived.
See, how carefully i want to choose words now........how apt i want to be published.......how many times will i read it again & again before clicking onto PUBLISH POST :)

Well calm down girl.....i say to myself :).........noone is even going to read your stupid stuffs......personal goof ups etc. etc. So you can just write anything & everything that crosses your mind & without even double crossing how it is :(
Excited, super excited, super duper excited as i am at this moment (12:10 am , 23rd jan, 2010) to be presise, i think i should end my 1st write-up here :)
Though not sleepy right now, i think i will just think to come up with something worthy to post next time, which will be soon.

Bye ............................... :))))))